kiss and tell.

2009-07-15T18:19:00.001+08:00

moved.

alteregosaffy.livejournal.com

clique that.

2009-05-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

There's the guy who just goes with whatever life brings. Floats along from place to place. To him, everyone's nice. He's nice to everyone. He's shy. He's quiet. He's simple. He thinks in black and white. But he's so cute. He's like the ultimate innocence factor.

And then there's the guy who's so perfect. You want to be jealous of him and hate him for his perfection, but he's so nice you feel guilty. He listens to whatever you rant about. He's everyone's best friend. He's so nice it hurts. It's a love-hate relationship.

Then there's the guy who thinks he's cool. He styles his hair and acts like he owns the world. He's the typical jock type – plays the drums and electric guitar, great at sports, and everyone thinks he's so hot. He is. And he knows it. He's just so annoyingly attractive.

Not forgetting the guy who is slightly different from the other guys. He's sensitive and emotional. He can't stand sports. Art is life to him. But he's not a freak, not a nerd. Just more in touch with his emotions than most other guys.

Of course there's the queen bee. She's popular and glamorous and confident. She teases the guys and gossips with the girls. She's never shy. She's sarcastic; but that makes her fun to talk to. She dresses amazingly. She's gorgeous. The only problem? Jealousy.

Then there's the boy-crazy one. Flirting incessantly, mostly unsuccessfully. Desperate. Texting them all day; writing their names everywhere. She pretends she knows all about them, and acts like she's their best friend. Wait, make that girlfriend.

And the mysterious, slightly absent-minded one. Not so in touch with the girls, completely oblivious to the guys. She's the emo-song-and-poem-writing type. Not that her clothes show it. She dresses normally, but hardly talks to people. She's intriguing.

Last of all, the girl-next-door. She's thoughtful and kind and considerate and polite. She's never rude, never insulting, never teasing. She's not awfully pretty; she's just sweet. Demure; gentle. Every finishing school's dream student. Everyone loves her. Or do they?

But obviously everything's not what it seems. There's jealousy and betrayal and oh, my gosh, girlfights.

Buckle up then, because the higher you are, the harder you fall.

2009-05-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

you're the queen of the superficial, how long before you tell the truth?

{♥ 3 days.}

2009-05-01T13:01:00.004+08:00

like, whatever. as if i care.

oh, the scandal.

2009-04-28T23:34:00.006+08:00

Vulnerability.

Denial.

I cannot, wait, for Saturday.

Gossip girl here, your one and only source into the scandalous lives of Manhattan's elite.

Wait, make that Singapore.

Oh, the shock.

Oh, the scandal.

something's gotta give.

2009-04-28T17:49:00.005+08:00

math's coming on thursday and i am totally, totally unprepared. everyone else says so too, but i bet they secretly study at home but wail in school. plus they're all freaking smart and they all understand what's going on in class but i don't. doesn't help that i have a ton of math things to do because i missed class or just couldn't keep up. this is really bad. i can't fail math again. and omg over the weekend i had 7 FAs. crazy. so much to do, way too little time. burnout is this close.

and today everyone in class was being ridiculously up in arms about the whole swine flu thing. the whole day certain people were moaning and making a big fuss out of everything. just go away keep quiet and concentrate on math we're not gonna die ok. i don't feel like going to school anymore. there are times you want to crawl into bed, plug in your ipod and not get out for months on end. this is one of those times. school is so uninspiring. but on another note, interviews are ongoing now. mine's this thursday. but it's ok fedele we'll pull through ily all loads and loads.

oh, and some people just HAVE to be so, awfully, annoyingly stalkerish. it's freaking me out. but i can't bring myself to do it again, so i guess i hafta live with it. but i mean really, stop acting like you're so close to me when you're obviously not. i'm trying to be nice, but you're making it so hard.

I'm looking for someone who won't pretend; somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you.

because everyone's just, so, hypocritical. idk who to trust anymore.

rgchoir♥♥♥ttm.

2009-04-21T23:50:00.003+08:00

So, it's all over. 5 months of work, ended today. And we all know what the result is, and yes, we cried. There isn't really much to say about it right now.

We're disappointed, yes. We feel like we could've done better, yes. Maybe the judges were unfair? Or maybe we really just weren't as good. Or maybe they were just comparing us, because honestly, it is inconvenient to have _______ choir doing Word Game just before us. We can't change anything though, and crying anymore won't help. But as long as we know we gave it our all; and I'm sure many of us enjoyed ourselves, if not all of us. All nauseous with excitement right, that morning. And now, we feel like there's nothing to look forward to anymore. There isn't even concert this year. I mean yeah, there's Arts Fest but it isn't the same. It isn't Uniquely Ours.

To the littlest ones of this SYF: Tabitha, Daniella and Daphne. Hopefully you guys have enjoyed this experience as much as we did. And this being your very first year in choir, it's good exposure. We're sorry as seniors if maybe we didn't guide you well enough or feel that we included you or integrated you guys enough. So sorry. SYF prep has been like whoa, really fast and time-consuming and has basically been our one and only target. But we're having a party for you guys this Friday, so look forward to it :D

To the omg-awesomeness-often-retarded-but-lovable Sec 2s: Claire, Bianche, Sabrina, Churen, Jodyn, Victoria, Mich, Emeline and Chengyi. Your batch is so, retarded. But you guys have been awesome. Supporting my batch and the Sec 4s this whole time. And you guys are so humble and gracious and have such awesome voices. And they say things like alternate batches are closest of all, but I think somehow you guys are Different. Or maybe my batch is just as high/crazy/retarded so we bond. And please, please don't feel like you guys have let us down; you didn't. In fact you guys made us so, so proud. And you made us cry loads too. You guys have another chance in Sec 4, and although yeah we feel like seriously there isn't much more we could've done and we still got this result only, the fact of the matter is that there are other things to be considered too. There's only so much we can do. The rest is up to the judges, the circumstances, the moods, the other schools and all that other shizz. We still ♥ you loads and loads and loads though.

To the awesomest-ever-senoirs, our ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Sec 4s: Chloe, Zongmin, Jovina, Si Rui, Janelle, Varsha, Qi Qi, Sheena, Bernice and Shze Hui. Thank you all so much for being there for us, for supporting us all through and for being amazing. Your batch has been so pro ok all of you have awesome voices too and are so committed to choir. This is your last SYF, but definitely shouldn't be the deciding factor in whether you guys have done a good job or not (like what Suet said). And especially for Chloe and Zongmin; you guys have been super wonderful conductors and choir chairs. And you gave it your all and have done so much for us, we can never ever say how much we love you guys. You've left our batch some really, big shoes to fill D: But it's ok we'll rise to the occasion cos' we're RGCHOIR AREN'T WE :D :D :D

And of course, to my ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ (10 hearts for batch 10!) batch: Amanda, En-Ting, Grace Tan, Giovanni, Cheryl, May, Azura, Pris, Carly, Grace Kong, Dionne, Stef, Mengdi and Yvonne, I cannot say how much I love all of you, and how wonderful you guys have made my life. Like seriously I think you guys would know right, somehow we feel close to breaking down cos' of school work and stuff, but you know that our choir batch is always there. And somehow the choir room is like this haven, where it's just music and passion and love and bondedness and this unspoken togetherness. And well done this year because we all made it to SYF :D And we better start working really hard cos' the Sec 4s have left us really big shoes to fill. But we'll pull through. And OMG WE ARE SO BRINGING ITSUKI BACK NEXT YEAR. I don't care, we must. AT ALL COSTS. If not I'll just cry and quit choir. Which is not possible, so we ARE going to bring it back.

And I don't know how many of you cried this morning when they announced over the PA system our results. I did. And omg this morning when we were all gathered in the foyer, it was so emotional. But we mustn't cry anymore ok, stay strong :D But I have no more tears to cry for the next five years or so, I think I spent them all already. AND DID YOU GUYS READ MY STATUS AND CLAIRE'S EMAIL :D :D :D We get to wear papers on our back saying ILY RGCHOIR and random things like that SO PLEASE BE SPONTANEOUS and ENTHU and SHOW YOUR LOVE FOR CHOIR :D

And last of all, to be honest, I think we're one of the most emotionally bonded CCAs, ever. Like Chloe said in her letter, "We all have a heart, a heart that has feelings, cos we've all been through laughter, tears, joy, pain, sorrow and grief, and we have so much bottled in us that when everything comes up, we create magic." I suggest you guys go reread Chloe and Zongmin's letters to us and ~~cry~~ be inspired. Ok I admit, I cried while rereading it. And seeing all of your PM's on MSN and FB and all, it's just so touching that you guys are head over heels in love with choir and all this magic we share. Ok I've said enough I'm sorry this is long and rambly. But basically:

I love you all, so keep singing for the ♥ of music.

rgchoirlovelovelove♥

2009-04-17T22:19:00.003+08:00

3 days to awesomeness. we are totally going to blow the judges away, not with our airy voices but with our Wild Summer Seas and Drunken Village Chiefs and Saint Mary. i love rgchoir to bits. i cannot actually imagine life without choir. and suddenly i'm feeling this rush of hope for choir. i thought we were gonna be really screwed before; we were 4 pracs away and we hadn't started Word Game. but yesterday's prac was really good, so was today's. there was so much energy and we're feeling the songs so, much, more. choreo is really cute THE JUDGES WILL BE IMPRESSED. it's definitely not the same as sec 1; i mean itsuki was different. it was definitely emo and sad and melancholic and everything and everything. but this year's songs are wonderful too. and i've come to love Word Game though I hated it before. and our set piece isn't that lame. well the lyrics were at first but we totally brought it to life and interpreted it quite well i think, and the dynamics for that song are really great.

and oh the other day ms loo showed us this blog where some random people go to watch the SYF performances for every single choir omg and then they post all about it, results and comments and all. even if you were lousy, they still post about how lousy you were. so there's pressure pressure pressure. but you know what we'll pull through we can do it there's no looking back. i rmb in sec 1 the day before SYF, we were super lousy i think it was the stress or sth our pitching went out and we weren't emoting enough and we had this pep talk from stace and shiao. but the next day we shone. literally, because although gold sparkles, gold with honours shines like WOW. omg i am feeling this sudden bout of emotion for choir; all the times we've had for concerts (awesome times) and sec 1 SYF and random school performances and all. and how much fun we have backstages or just during normal prac with all the lame things that happen ms loo's weird actions retarded seniors/batchmates/juniors oh my i miss our alternate batch now too and i could gush on and on, but basically,

RGchoir lovelovelove you all ♥ ♥ ♥

(18 days :D)

crazystressbusyflopdie.

2009-04-13T22:08:00.003+08:00

busybusybusybusybusycrazybusybusybusybusybusybusybusy.

it's 7 days to syf stress stress stress we're not sounding that great we really need to work on it but im sure we'll pull through. i found out im dept. i/c for decor for the pb 60th homecoming lunch in july, so we need to start planning. i'm in charge of our shoebag collaboration thing with RI and the rgs130 rafflesian products umbrella thing. so much, so much. and i might be asked to do designs for the proposed new RGS vest to replace our blazers. and math ga on partial fractions is this thursday, someone save me. math ppa is 29th april, too soon D: and all my exams are coming. my pile of math worksheets is a mile high, and i don't get bio. chinese is like #)&%^$* and hist geog are like mug till you drop kind of things. i feel so stressed right now i want to scream and sleep and not wake up for school.

I WANT TO PRETEND THE WORLD IS PRETTY AND JOYOUS AND I DON'T HAVE ANY WORRIES AT ALL.

but i cant. utter rubbish.

on a lighter, happier note, 22 DAYS TO AWESOMENESS :)

Angel of Music

2009-03-25T23:37:00.004+08:00

MUMMY IS DOWNSTAIRS WATCHING PHANTOM OF THE OPERA WHILE I AM STUCK UP HERE DOING HOMEWORK THIS IS NOT FAIRRRRR

but im like singing along while working :D but i love love love love love Phantommmm omg. but the movie's not as good as the musical i think and the original cast like sarah brightman and michael crawford are loads better i love brightman's voice. esp in the song Phantom of the opera the part where she does her high shrieky thing and ohman i remember in sec 1 on my birthday mummy bought the super ex tickets for us to go watch Phantom at the esplanade. and how i cried and cried when the Phantom was like left all alone while christine and raoul rowed off and OMG CALM DOWN.

ok i must continue working now. but the music is SO, distracting.

saturday come fasterrrr

2009-03-25T19:08:00.004+08:00

Pink Fluffy Strapless Dress: $100+
Cute shoes: $70
Accessories and stuff: $50+++

Seeing Cheng Lynn in a dress: Priceless.

There are some things money can't buy,
For everything else, there's Raffles.

Koped off the FB group I WANT TO SEE CHENG LYNN IN A DRESS. omg funnyyyy i tell you. lynn go wear a dress for prom we shall dress you up and LOAD you with makeup hahaha. and we will take pictures and act like paparazzi we'll snap every shot possible regardless of glam factor. and then we will spam fb upload them all jam the whole system because there are too many photos of lynn omg. potato sack madness.

anyway. school's been ok but there's nothing to look forward to everyday it's just lessons lessons lessons. saturday come quickly please D: D: D:

on a lighter note, i made it :) thank You God because i know i couldn't have done it without You. to those who might, jia you k there's another round of audits you can do it! and for those who didn't, it's ok, RGchoir still loves you and we'll be behind you all the way. besides, there's more to life than just this. to those who did, YAY :D

i am suddenly so inspired for fashion cluster and my barbie doll dress and everything oh man. i wish school work was all like this. and i love doing research for FC cos it gives me an excuse to look at prettyyyy ads and pictures from all those posh brands.

k gtg do work. i am just not inspired to do homework psssht.

and it's all gone, just like that.

2009-03-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

and the holidays are like, WHOOSH. and it's all over.

BOARD CAMP WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS. i miss it so, so much D: can't wait till next year's. oh man i LOVE PB AWESOMELY MUCH and camp and the dancing and the food and the random screaming and night maze and the stupid shutter movie and the after meal highness where we sang all those songs like CHECK YES JULIET (lovelovelove) and all our instructors who ran across the field after the bus as we were leaving that made us cry ohmygoodness. I WANT BOARD CAMP ALL OVER AGAIN.

anyway after that i went to bintan with the family and I TANNED. like, HAHAHA I FINALLY AM NOT SO WHITE ANYMORE. but it'll probably fade. but i hope not i don't wanna look like some random vamp-ish person with white skin and all again.

i survived monday. with much pain and effort. but today was not good. such a lethargic day. and so much work to do. gotta rush fashion cluster geog chinese bio by tomorrow D: oh but cheer prac was fun, thankfully.

this time i need a soldier; a really bad ass soldier

but life goes on.

2009-03-11T17:53:00.004+08:00

Used to be so close. So, close. Inseparable. Calls everyday. Laughing; sharing secrets. Knew everything about each other. You'd come over to my house every other week, don't you remember. I do.

But somehow, somewhere along the line, people change. We changed. I changed. I made new friends. You made new friends too. I left you behind; so you say. Everyone around me seemed to know I was changing. But I didn't know then. And I kept telling myself that we'd always be inseparable; that somehow or other we'd be there for each other. And year after year we think we're growing as friends when we've only drifted further apart.

I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I know what I should do, but somehow it seems so hard. We hardly ever have anything to talk about anymore. And we can make the effort, but anyone can see it's forced. I know we used to call each other Best Friends. But were we, really? Or was that just something temporary? Because now, honestly, I don't feel that way anymore.

I always feel so fake when I'm with you. And maybe that's why I give my time to all my other commitments; so when you ask if I have time, I don't.

Excuses, excuses.

The thing is, I don't really want to move on. I'm selfish too. People tell me I should keep my friendship with you because it's Precious and Important. And I know how selfless you can be. But I don't think I click with you anymore. You hang out with people I don't click with either. And by the way, you're hanging out with someone you used to dislike. Hate actually. You told me not to get too close to her, and that she wouldn't make a good friend. And now, you go out with her; spend time with her. Her, of all people.

I know, the irony hurts. Definitely. I want to tell you that I want to move on, and just stay with all those memories when we were younger. But I can't bring myself to. Although I think now it's already something not openly acknowledged; but we both know it. The sad thing is, I'm not sure if I'll miss you that much. Shows how much we've drifted doesn't it.

Maybe it is time to move on. You have your life, I have mine. Our lives aren't even running parallel anymore. They're diverging.

But life goes on.

So yeah, have fun with your life.

math pt please go away.

2009-03-03T23:17:00.003+08:00

I am totally supposed to be doing math pt now but omg i have no life. in sec 3 we have no life.

let me reiterate.

IN SEC 3 WE HAVE NO LIFE.

everyday its work pt work essays work fa work research work cca work rehearsals. i have no time for anything else. and this year i've been sleeping at like 1, 2 in the morning everyday. not. good. at. all. i have permanent eyebags it is SAD. and i think they're biased against the trip humans people or something all our exams were crammed into those few days. English geog lit on one day, bio ss hist on another. but WHO CARES IT'S ALL OVER because i have no physics data analysis on thurs nyeh nyeh but then MATH PT IS DUE THEN. ohmy.

- momentary panicking -

everything should be ok but i really need to do well for pt cos stats ppa was plain screwed. i totally flunked it man. need to work harder.

anyway, SO, MANY, THINGS, HAVE, HAPPENED. like sli! it was fun. i miss it. our performance may not have been super awesome but it bonded us and i had fun rehearsing and performing it. like sarah and her -slicks back hair- "I'm Rain. Use Clear Shampoo" and Lynn's "Good morning thank you and that is all" omg we were all laughing like crazy. and then of course our exams, where i crammed everything the night before i cannot believe myself. but then again i probably didn't do too well either. i feel so awfully irresponsible and stuff but the thing is we only have a freaking 24 hours in a day and its not enough D:

and founder's day! this year somehow or other we're having it on two days. friday and saturday. and it's in the evening this year. but Dionne deployed me as Ms Norris' personal usher with Sarah Siaw isn't that cool. so honoured.

and mygosh i HEART avemaria like A LOT. we had prac at vch that day and it was kinda screwed and all our pitching was disgusting and we didn't blend and all but the feeling was so magical and ms loo made us all lie down on the stage and close our eyes and listen to the piano. and vch brought back all those wonderful memories of syf in sec 1. ITSUKI. ohmy. itsuki has to be my favourite song of ALL. i remember crying on stage as we sang it, and how shiao yen looked like her heart was breaking while conducting. and how after that ko matsushita stood up and said "bravo" from the gallery up there with all the judges and gold with honours and all. itsuki brings back so many nice memories. my batch has, to bring it back next year if not i'll just cry. I HEART THAT SONG MUCHLY. even more than ave, actually. but ohwell ave is real pretty too.

AND I SHOULD TOTALLY BE DOING MATH PT NOW. I FOUND A LOT OF USEFUL DATA THOUGH I AM HAPPY.

i should stop shouting and this is an awfully long rambly unnecessary jumble of words you're better off not reading. i think i needed the stress relief. somehow hitting the keyboard helps to relieve stress.

SO I SHALL SHOUT SOMEMORE WHILE HITTING THE KEYBOARD REALLY HARD. I BELIEVE IT IS THERAPEUTIC FOR YOUR FINGERS. SO, GO HIT. (not on someone, but the keyboard.)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMONE (and tim koh though yours was yesterday.) OLD PEOPLE.

i love this record, baby, but i can't see straight anymore; just dance.

dictators.

2009-02-10T22:50:00.006+08:00

well. today was...emotional. tiring. and awfully busy. have so much work it's inhumane. and it's confirmed. our batch is splitting for busking groups. oh well. i suppose everything will work out in the end. God, please bring me through all this.

actually my class can be awesome. Denise is damn funny.

"Who drew an anus on the board!", Denise on Mrs P's drawing of a stoma. My class also now has issues with sexual orientation O.o hmm.

i need the weekend now i have so much work i'm going to cry.

D:

2009-02-05T23:25:00.001+08:00

i hate thursdays. pffft.

decode.

2009-02-04T22:54:00.002+08:00

so much to do such little time and omg so many exams i tell you they are against trip humans people like wth three exams in one day when everyone else has one. and i need sleepppppp idk what i do for so long everyday that makes me sleep so late, but i've been sleeping like at 1 or 2 the past week. fashion stuff due tmr i die history essay social studies essay 2 math assignments a million pages of bio jian bao sli item.

sec three is crazy.

you think that i can't see, what type of man you are, if you're a man at all.

ohemgee.

2009-01-29T22:07:00.004+08:00

math graded assignment tomorrow. i'd love to say i'm very prepared and i know exactly how to calculate everything, and that histograms are my newfound BFFs, and i've understood everything that's been going on in class the past few lessons.

unfortunately, i suck at math and cannot lie however much i want to. aaaah. on a separate note i miss web and wg. i haven't seen those people for ages. hopefully i'll see them saturday.

stand back everybody; she's on a mission to save the world.

yes no maybe. MESSED UP.

2009-01-25T22:02:00.001+08:00

some people are just so, annoying. like omg you have a gf for goodness sake stop making her feel like crap and corrupting innocent sec 1s with your (pathetic) love life. and you, another one, i mean you're not that blame free and maybe if you thought about it hard enough you'd know why. and omg parents are so (*&^@$# annoying. and the kids downstairs are being noisy and irritating so i escaped upstairs saying i had work to do. oh well.

really tired now. math sucks like crazy i have EIGHT PAGES. omg die. and lit! paradise lost is so confusing. i read the same sentence on wikipedia so many times i was so dizzy till i enlarged the font many many many times and used my finger to point out the words as i read.

ok and my cbox is off for now, until i decide it's time to put it back up. oh well.

all the boys and all the girls;\

someone, save me.

2009-01-23T21:42:00.008+08:00

omg i am so freakkked out. went to far east with manda after choir (mostly slacking and MARY TAN) for bubble tea and the smart girl forgot to bring her wallet out but only realised AFTER we walked the long way to the bus stop. and so i waited for her while she went to get it. and these sec 1 girls whom i totally do not know started chatting me up. ok fine they weren't but they just started chatting with me like i've been their friend for years. and it wouldn't have been so bad if she/they weren't so creepy. she was like "ni de sheng yin hao ke ai!" which kind of translates to "your voice is so cute!" and she kept trying to poke me/tickle me i got so annoyed but she was so weird it was hard to keep a straight face. and she asked for the number of the prefect who booked her to stalk her or something. i didnt give it but i was Really Creeped Out. she was also making random lunges at my file to try find out my name thank goodness she doesnt know. i stupidly gave her my class cos i thought she wasnt so weird yet. oh and earlier on today in the canteen her blouse was buttoned all the way to the top so i was staring and then she asked me, "will you book me for having my blouse buttoned all the way to the top?" and i burst out laughing, and she looked like she was going to cry / beat me up. and the worst thing is she's in waddle too so i'll be seeing her during house pracs. man.

ah well. and yesterday during trials this girl called Ariel tried out. and i thought she was going to be cool because of you know, the namesake. but when she saw me she was like "Don't eat your uniform!" and i gave her a look. then she went "Don't eat your toes either!" and i was so, disturbed. and she's probably gonna get in, i mean ranked 4th? whatever. i will survive.

oh the teachers apparently think we have SO much time during the cny holiday. yeah right. i have like 8 pages of math to do and chinese gan xiang social studies essay geog worksheets die die die. and omg toy soldier/circus is stuck in my head. so annoying at night i keep hearing it.

he's a one stop shot, makes my cherry pop; sweet sugar candyman.

this is so not a random title.

2009-01-21T17:20:00.002+08:00

i realise sec 3 is actually quite stressful. yeah i kinda heard stuff from seniors and all but like whoa, everything's coming so fast. or maybe it's just math. i dont get anything, at all. ok maybe i get that those weird things are called histograms but the rest of the time the teacher's like yak yak yak yak and i'm like O.o and did i say im sitting next to Aidi the superrrrr pro girl who's doing what, A level syllabus? so she only does her special math stuff twice a week. the rest of time she's sitting in class during math doing her own things. i bet she laughs at us secretly. but its kinda helpful i suppose. but it's intimidating too. i have so many things going on right now. busy busy busy. at least sec 1 orientation's over. but then SAs and SLI's coming. then ORA where mrs W wants us to participate. and then before you know it mid-years are here.

die, math, DIE.

im quite happy im not doing physics and chem. everyday i see isabelle mugging like crazy for chem she's always doing her worksheets and writing so, so much it's freaky. geog is quite fun with mrs Ho. her humour is so weird. like last year in class she suddenly started fangirling about Miffy. and the other day she was explaining her daughter's obsession with mr bean. we all listened amusedly. well hopefully i'll survive this year. and oh school's being really sucky this friday is still full day. and we don't even get to dress up. i mean what kinda nonsense is that it's damn unfair all the other schools get to go home early. and i still have cca after that. shizzz.

Hollywood girls; nails hair heels gloss glitz.

black with a vengeance.

2009-01-18T21:38:00.005+08:00

so, now people know. damn. somehow i feel vulnerable? idk. oh well, whatever i write here, it's me so if you got a problem, it's you.

back from obs, with tanlines OMG. and 2387987598723498 sandfly bites. sucks so bad because i have random red polka dots everywhere which are so UGLY man. ah go read other people's blogs about obs, too tired to post. but omg i'm missing it so much :/ OBS WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS. although i slept till 11+ this morning. chionged all my homework and i still have stupid si han. im prolly gonna do it tmr. i'd rather have obs any day than all this work.

this time i need a soldier

a really bad ass soldier

a boy who takes, takes care of me

i'm so damn glad that's over.

oh bee ass.

2009-01-11T17:34:00.002+08:00

so. obs is tomorrow. LIKE, TOMORROW. omgomgomgomgomg. i am so, not prepared. everyone says obs will be really fun but idk. we get to bathe a grand total of TWICE in five days. so im bringing loads of wet wipes hahaha. we're the second school though, (RI was first what happened to the Ladies First principle!) so we're supposed to feel privileged. anyways. coming back on the 16th.

orientation camp friday and yesterday. was quite fun :D some sec 1s are really cute. they're generally very small sized. nat has her bronchitis again so she didnt go yesterday. so it was just me and grace who skipped her training hur hur.

our pb juniors are so cute.

i need sleep.

Brit's on a mission.

2009-01-07T22:15:00.002+08:00

yeah smash on the radio; bet i penned it

britney break me off; ooh toy soldier

i'm out the door it's automatic simple babe

i'm like a fire bottle bustin' in your face

so tired of you being up in my space

how much more can i take

i'm tired of private drivers

need a general that ain't weak

when i shut the door leavin' with my bags

hit the scene in my new wagon

bet he gonna wish he knew

the type of fun that i'm gettin' into

peek-a-boo, he good

doin' things you wish you could

he's not talkin', he's just walkin'

like 'em city boys from new york

this time i need a soldier

a really bad ass soldier

that knows how to take, take care of me

i'm so damn glad that's over

this time i need a soldier

i'm sick of toy soldiers

a boy that knows how to take care of me

won't be just comin' over

i don't want no more; toy soldiers

i'm simply sick and tired of those; toy soldiers

i want it more than ever now

i realized that they ain't listenin'

like a princess supposed to get it

that's why i'm dustin' off my fitted

comin' back looking delicious

yes i know they wanna kiss me

now i hold them at attention

'cause new Britney's on a mission.

school starts, broken hearts

2009-01-01T14:27:00.000+08:00

school starts tomorrow. i can't believe holidays have passed so, so fast. i suppose i enjoyed myself. idk. but i actually can't wait to get out of the house. it's so hot and stuffy and everyone's getting on everyone else's nerves. arguments shouting annoying remarks short tempers. sec 1 orientation! seems exciting. idk. i'm feeling so tired now. stayed up so late last night (actually this morning). received like 6 messages consecutively wishing me Happy New Year. it's a wonder phones were still able to function. I thought there'd be like a jam or something. hmm. i'm getting slightly incoherent i really wanna go sleep but we have to go out later and guess who'll be there. sheesh.

twilight.

2008-12-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

so it’s been a million years since i last touched this. but anyway reporting day is over! o-v-e-r. it was like my life for so long. but rep day was fine in the end, although my toes hurt like crazy after that. and then after rep day sab was so enthusiastic about going to see twilight. so the rep day comm went. and i didn’t expect myself to find it so sweet. i mean it’s not like rob pattinson or kristen stewart are infinitely good looking, and a lot of really sweet parts in the book weren’t included, but it was so touching the way edward and bella had to try so hard to stay together and all. but i thought bella was kind of cocky in the show. the book made her seem so much more vulnerable and unprotected. but in the show she seemed so confident, so sure of herself, and when edward asked her if she was afraid she said No. and at that moment i thought she was acting really arrogant. idk that’s just my view. but alice cullen is so, cute. she looks so pixie-ish and i think ashley greene played her really well. it’s been one week since i went to watch twilight, i realise. and i can still remember stuff, wow me.

freak!

2008-12-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

REPORTING DAY TOMORROW. FREAK OUT!

The Best You Never Had

2008-12-05T21:13:00.003+08:00

I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I am. It's like this bubbly feeling of anticipation. My tummy feels all fluttery and all. I haven't felt this way in the longest time. Oh well.

Nat flew off today. Paris and London ok! And she said she didn't want to go. Anyway. She'll only be back on the 27th, so. Oh; I found out some very frighteningly but amusingly similar things about someone. Sometimes the world is so small it's freaky. For all you know the boy next door could be the best friend of your future husband. You never know. Ok maybe not so extreme, but still.

Reporting Day is comingggg. On the 19th. And it's a constant headache. Right after ICYL and PIT camp. At least I didn't have to go to school these past few days. If not I'll be Burnt Out. Oh, the whole of Fedele has been confirmed, officially. So next year we're gonna be together, again :D

the waiting is killing me.

2008-12-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

you and your sexy lopsided smile;

maybe.

2008-12-01T23:45:00.005+08:00

maybe this first step we took can bring back everything we went through.

delicate, like a butterfly.

you break people's hearts like they're replaceable. well, they're not.

i'm so, over you.

2008-11-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

i less than three peebee.

i fell for-

2008-11-30T01:05:00.006+08:00

so, pit camp's over. it was really really fun, ESPECIALLY night walk. but foveo mostly wasn't scared. momentarily shocked yeah but not really scared. but my batch was apparently one of the most hysterical of all times o.O anyway i was in the foyer singing itsuki and making up random haunting tunes. and the resonance was damn good so a lotta Fiorians and even Ms Picca said it sounded creepy :D means i succeeded haha. but after awhile i decided to scare people directly. so we'd let them walk a while in silence hearing just their own footsteps then all of a sudden i'd grab their ankles or pull their shirt and scream "I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH ME". quite a few got shocked. ironically, this year a lot of people said my singing was one of the scarier moments during Night Walk. but last year i was one of the most terrified little people. i cried and refused to complete my walk. even after i was told that shijia and celine were following. i was still super scared ok i feel so loser-ish now. but it's funny how i can have So Much Fun scaring other people but when it comes to me i get frightened.

Masquerade! it was so funny seeing Mandi and Zhen as Prince and Zachary, the hot ACSI boyfriends! then halfway through they interlocked arms and went "The Best Is Yet To Be!". ok no offence to guys from AC but it was damn funny! And then people were like, "Eh Mandi looks quite hot as a guy leh" and she got Creeped Out. I can't wait till next year when we get to dress up like paikias haha. dayna was adorable as a nerd! rachel and jess redefined bimbo. liting accused mr lau of being jane's BOYFRIEND! faux pas much! anyway everything's on FB.

anyways. so much is happening. right after icyl was pit camp then now reporting day then before you know it it's january and sec 1 orientation. and my (perilous) trip humans journey begins. ah well. got my stitches taken out already. feels so raw and gross now. ok i should be going to sleep now. i don't have a life/holiday. so sadddd. nat's leaving for paris on friday. have fun, nataleeee.

why does my heart do that funny fluttering thing when i'm around you?

lead-the-sheep; leadership

2008-11-26T20:47:00.006+08:00

and so, after a million years of planning slogging laughing sleeping late feeling excited chionging freaking out eating macs 2 days in a row factory packing calling the tshirt woman 234574398578 times singing going for gm anticipating going through programme another 234574398578 times proudly proclaiming im from ot,

ICYL IS OVER.

i think i needed the big font. somehow im getting this weird feeling that icyl isn't over yet, that it's about to begin. i suppose as ot we didn't really get to participate so actively during icyl itself, or interact as much with the delegates, but it was a super fun experience. for the few times i sat in for the talks, i feel i actually did learn something. Her Excellency Zanele Makina was really, really inspiring. and dr shirley lim is, SO, nice. she's our icyl patron and she sponsored everyone's peaks profiling thing. like, wow. and according to mrs hoo, she wants icyl'10 to be "BIGGER and BETTER." so. i wanna come back as a facil in icyl'10! or else, as a participant. honestly, it's something i srsly want to do.

these few days its weird not going to school so early anymore. i slept in on saturday after icyl because i was really tired after everything, and cos i had to get stitches at the hospital. i tripped up the stupid amphi steps in my court shoes trying to run after someone with nadia, then i got this gash on my shin. it was totally painless for the first minute or so, and i didn't realise it until nadia practically screamed "ARIEL WHAT HAPPENED" and then i Freaked Out. now it doesn't hurt as much but i am still super Grossed Out by it all. claire said it wasn't that bad when she saw it but i hate this kinda thing. which is why i probably Fail as a doctor. anyway. pit camp tmr! yeah i am excited. it's overnight :D meaning NIGHT WALK! oh man we get to be ghosts this year and im gonna take lotsa pictures of the little juniors freaking out. and im gonna sing parts of itsuki and speak in that freaky doll voice and it'll be sooo fun. but i rmb when i did the walk myself i was terrified. i cried and just got so scared esp when hannah told those stories from previous years. though now that i look back i realise they cant be true if not night walk wouldnt be allowed to continue.

anyway i should go sleep now we hafta report at 8 tmr :/ i want my sleep yeah so i shall go sleep now.

you make me laugh, but why don't i make you feel the same way?

ICYL :D

2008-11-16T23:36:00.004+08:00

ICYL is finally here! Day 0 was today, so the int'l delegates all arrived at ymca alr. OMG i am totally, totally excited. the past few days we've been slogging our guts out. but i think the harder you work for something the more you'll enjoy it. so icyl should be a BLAST! I LOVE OT AND LOGS. but anyway i should be sleeping now, gotta wake up at 5.30 am tmr, be in school by 6.30 am. sheesh. the whle week NO BEAUTY SLEEP. and nadia! we should totally co-ord what to wear for IFN. MAN IM EXCITED.

ICYL'08 FTW!

2008-11-12T16:19:00.000+08:00

something's gotta give. maybe it's you.

loss of sanity

2008-11-09T19:41:00.003+08:00

oh man so many things, such little time. and so much confusion and emotion. i feel strangely detached from everything. my brain and hands don't seem to be co-ordinating. my brain is all messed up and everything's going round and round in this whirlwind but my hands are doing PBCO ICYL IF Rep Day things. thank God FF is over, less things to think about. but, i have, so much, to do. icyl is in 8 DAYS. wtshizz. i barely have any holiday AT ALL.

schedule for the week:

monday 7.30 am ICYL opening closing ceremony rehearsal // 1.30 pm logs meeting with ms koh // 5 pm leave for IF with lynn till 11pm.tuesday 9 am choir prac // 1.30 pm rep day comm meeting & envisioning session till 3.30/4 pm. wednesday banner and stuff coming in. GO TO SCHOOL TO HELP PACK. thursday tshirts coming in. GO TO SCHOOL TO COLLECT. continue packing from yesterday, do setup.friday last min setup stuff, go through everything again. maybe go to ymca to do last min stuff too. saturday joell's rgps carnival then maybe clueless. if not, web.sunday church, worry about icyl, freak out when i get a call from someone saying something's not done for icyl. monday ICYL IS HERE OMG FINALLY. report to school at 6.30 am wtshizz o.O

but tmr is IF, exciting! batch performance is the love. esp the whole new world remix written by sarah and lee voon. super funny! and vanessa and pris rewrote lemon tree, and now it's so sad and tear-inducing. i might cry singing it. and, confirmations. i really didn't wanna think about it. well a lot of things have happened, but i suppose everything will turn out the way He wants it to. And maybe He's trying to teach me something through this whole experience. but fedele i love you, for being there for me to support and encourage me all the way no matter what the outcome may be. i love you dionne and isabelle, the first 2 people i really talked to about it. i cried after i went out from speaking with the 4 heads and juliet. i just teared and i wasn't sure whether it was joy or uncertainty or relief. i really don't know. oh well there's nothing much i can do now, so i'm leaving everything in Your hands. thank you Lord :)

is missing you a crime?

2008-11-07T23:31:00.000+08:00

strut your stuff; show them you've got it.

xoxo.

2008-11-05T19:04:00.008+08:00

somehow, everything seems to be spiralling out of control. i thought i had it all nicely under control then suddenly, whoosh. it's all gone down the drain. so many things happening, so little time to get it all in my head. confused, much.

i still think of you, but i have the sad feeling you've forgotten all about me.

shoot.

2008-11-04T18:44:00.006+08:00

omg i cannot believe myself i had another haircutting disaster and now my hair is short short short and soooo layered and like 1/10 of the original length/thickness. sheesh. everyone was really shocked and everything o.O plus, if you knew me from primary school and compare my hairlengths then and now the difference is disconcerting. one day i shall dig up photos from last time and compare and feel my heart break. but apparently my hair now is cute, so.

last day of school today but it wasn't much. got report card back. i did better than expected! i was really sure i would get ____, but in the end i got ____ ! mm i miss web. sick last saturday so i didn't go. and this sat is FF Rec Day and CONFIRMATIONS, so i can't go for web, again. or maybe i can. but! confirmations! are! coming! and i'm really scared. well, more about out batch as a whole. like, we've been through so much and so many things have happened. we can't afford to have our batch broken up even more. on the brighter side, we get to plaaayyyy with our new juniors! we met them some time last week but i can't remember who they all are.

a. n. y. w. a. y. mummy says we'll be going to malaysia for a holiday. she wants a beach & shopping holiday and phuket and bangkok are outta the question cos she doesn't want to get bombed. AAAH and i must say AGAIN, how cute my rabbit is :)

voulez vous

2008-10-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

i've got the ridiculous voulez vous abba song stuck in my head. sheesh. anyway. grad assembly today. sat with dionne and 209. and actually _____ is quite nice and she's really funny so i don't know why everyone keeps saying otherwise. jodi complained about how we have 3 new pits in netball. lemme see if i can rmb. dawne, evangelyn and li chin. aha. ok actually i'm really really bored now. see youuu.

net carn!

2008-10-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

two thirteen pwns! we got 2nd for andy's superrrr nice banner and special mention for our last minute cheer :) but today was quite fun lah. and we all went camera high and took a LOT of pictures, esp. during the teachers vs. sec 2 netballers match. ESPECIALLY of ____ & _____. and there were total classic poses, i.e. toad & the weird L sign thing. damn funny lah.

ay see pee.

2008-10-23T22:55:00.001+08:00

acp was kinda screwed luh. like everything was so messy and crowded and we had to keep entertaining people by dancing and singing and everything with no breaks. gosh im glad its over. now we have to worry about drama night, though frankly speaking i dont think its anything great. i mean, we have cool abba songs and all, but some other classes really put in much more effort than us. oh well. net carn coming too, but sadly we'll not be getting our class tee in time :( in fact i dont know when we'll be getting it. but its really cute!

etiquette; darling.

2008-10-14T22:24:00.002+08:00

today was some social and dining etiquette course. i tell you, i've learnt most of the stuff they attempted to teach. talked a lot to simone and had a lotta fun taking mrt home with her and sheryl. plus, she told me all about ______ & ______. i feel so informed now. k i'm really tired now. goodnight.

i really really wish you'd notice.

hail the survivor;

2008-10-09T15:12:00.003+08:00

yes. i survived math. I SURVIVED MATH. i think i can actually do ok! as in, obviously i have careless mistakes and i didnt know how to do a couple of questions and stuff. BUT. chinese was really silly. nobody cared about it anymore, after math. the whole bunch of us didnt even understand the paper but HECK. it feels like the end of exams alr even though we have science tmr. HAHAH. finally free. plus, i can't wait to S-H-O-P.

our bunny is seriously cute. its so soft and smells really nice after its bubble bath :) but its kinda daft, it tried to eat its poo and ignored the Premium Organically Grown Wheatgrass in its food bowl. but its only 2 months old, so.

dang.

2008-10-07T22:51:00.004+08:00

while everyone is rejoicing over their last geog/lit/hist paper i am drumming my fingers and SIGHING. but oh well im dropping physics chem which is goooood because i cannot stand science. or math. which is why i am insanely extremely unbelievably terribly horribly immensely screwed for math on thurs. i just cant seem to get some stuff. i am trying to do loads of practices, but somehow although i can finish them now i just blank out during the exam D: english and lit were ok today. i thought the compre/summary was easier than our fas. hopefully i did ok. but lit! OH DEARIE ME. i did my 2nd question first cos i i had SO much to write. and i didnt know what to write for my first question. so i spent such a long time thinking i didnt write my conclusion in the end D:

thank you, ______'s teacher for blatantly hinting that ______ will come out for seq tmr. i am trying to phrase points as practice. gah. but MATH is weighing on my mind like a heavy watermelon. pooh.

mr rainforest is my new best friend :) HAHAH and amanda yim the funny girl MUST tell us all when her first date with him is! :D nadia and i were trying to distract amanda today by talking about guys but it failed. we're not THAT obsessed ok. aaaah my history notes beckon.

oh oh wait! today mum and dad bought us a rabbit! like all of a sudden, out of the blue! they left the house while i was sleeping then when i woke up and called them they said they were at anchorpoint. then when they came home mum was holding this cardboard carrier with a rabbit inside! i totally didnt expect it AT ALL. but it is DAMN cute. it's only 2 months old ok! it's called J. Bitsy. dad was being ridiculous and coming up with all sorts of weird names. like he went out in the middle of dinner to inspect the bunny then he burst in and exclaimed,

"JOLLY! WE'LL NAME IT JOLLY!" *-.-" looks all around table*

we obviously rejected it, along with his other suggestions like Falala, Vadi, Spoony (cheena Snoopy), Pablo, Roberto, Boris (! like eew!!!), and most originally, Rabbit. well its called Bitsy and is DROP-DEAD CUTE. oh its a guy. so now we have 2 male rabbits in the house cos dad's born in the year of the rabbit. so coincidental. or maybe it's fate.

stop telling me something and doing another. i can't stand it.

gone for good.

2008-10-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

I know what it's like to fall.

Hard.

I used to have it all. I belonged to something. I had a place. I had them. I actually thought they were my friends. Now I can't believe how stupid I was. They seemed to be so nice and fun and understanding; we seemed to click so well. Everything was so cool. I felt; popular. Like I had an identity. But all the while we were becoming so close, but so isolated from everyone else. So now, I really have nobody. Yeah sure there are tons of other nice girls, it's just that I feel so odd. Like I'm a stranger. For so long I was with them, that I didn't get to know everyone else. And nothing I do now can get me to belong again.

Because once you're out of the clique, it's hard to get back in.

alberta ferretti.

2008-10-04T12:34:00.004+08:00

i might faint. someone, save me.

late nights.

2008-10-04T12:27:00.006+08:00

oh dear. i slept at 10.30 last night and woke up at 11 this morning. i must be very tired. sheesh.

i tell you i really dont like mercy and freaking justice (quote 'ster). but i think its the theme thats gonna be tested. dang.

blue grass; green sky

2008-10-03T20:27:00.006+08:00

and, you wonder why i do these kinda things. gosh, isn't it so obvious.

chinese was quite crappy. i wrote some random drama tragedy thing. and mariachang went round telling the whole world. now everyone knows what silly zuo wens i write. english was ok, 'cept that nobody else i know wrote ads and values. and i ahemfakedahem evidence. in fact, nearly all my evidence was faked except personal anecdotes. i hope they don't go checking up companies and stuff. and i have a new best friend. mr moustache man! oh man i died laughing when amanda sent it to me.

"apparently he's very proud."

"of WHAT?"

"his moustache lah!"

omg. ok geog on monday. finished mugging but im scared i cant remember the points. kapeesh. and natalie wong yun zhen! you finished exams today yeah thanks i bet you're gonna GLOAT right. ok gotta go back to revising lit. just like everyone else, I HATE JUSTICE AND MERCY. really i do. im gonna screw lit this time. oh please.

superhero\

2008-10-03T15:10:00.004+08:00

i need a cookie; studying is draining.

but oh, i'm too bright for you.

happy children's day. whee.

2008-10-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

what rubbish. we have no children's day at all. it's more like happy mugger's day man. at least its a holiday tomorrow too. more mugging. i think the school knew we needed time to mug/rest/slack so they disguised tomorrow as a speech day holiday. oh wells. but friday's only zuo wen and english pe. should be ok. well, english should be.

mummy experimented with casserole making. turned out... quite nice.

the horror/relief/spasms that dweeby (or his absence) incites.

2008-09-29T22:29:00.005+08:00

OH GOSH I HAVEN’T HAD A CHANCE TO POST ABOUT DWEEBY AT ALL. thank God today was his/her (explained later on) last lesson. oh man i remember one post where i was worried that bush would take over. now i almost wish bush had taken over. dweeby is/was/will be by far the worst ever teacher. ok since we caannot determine his/her gender im just gonna use it. let’s start with the basics.

appearance: stupid floppy hair. like, it really flaps when it walks. gross. triangular face. im not joking. yellow skin. like it has jaundice or something. and it has this gross pouch which it slings diagonally. it wears it EVERY lesson without fail. we’re all wondering what’s inside. sluxie said it was a connector between shirt and pants, so if you lift it up... well you get the picture (but hopefully not).

(oh i forgot to mention that sluxie left for america already. hope she enjoys herself there :D but its really sad luh cos she was in my science group and made me laugh like, a LOT. and she made class so funny and everything. oh well, we’ll miss you sluxie!)

back to dweeby. it’s also super super unreasonable. it’s so anal about everything. prolly cos it came from (censored) school so he thinks we have to be treated the same way too. stupid. plus, it cracks these abolutely idiotic jokes and we all laugh fakely but it seems to think we appreciate his humour (or lack of it). i think the whole class hates it man.

oh and about the gender confusion. my science group was called praying mantis (courtesy of yoon jung :D) cos well, it looks like a praying mantis! then it came to our group and said, “is it female or male? because the female praying mantis eats the male ones! hurhur” (its stupid laugh). then cos we were obviously referring to it, we said it was gender confused. cos well, we think its rather gay. then manda’s group called itself insect repellant and dweeby seemed to think it was so hilarious and announced it to the unappreaciative class (pm and ir included).

oh dear i am getting increasing nauseous writing about dweeby. i shall save myself.

GOODBYE DWEEBY. may your hair fail you one day and your pouch go missing.

warzones.

2008-09-23T20:55:00.004+08:00

gosh. fashion cluster was so stressful ok. really it was. i stayed up so so so late just trying to finish everything. just cos a very ahemidioticahem cheeseball had fantabulous ideas we just had to follow. but i must admit i'm VERY PROUD OF MEEEEE for completing everything on time :) and to be honest it might not look the best but i like it anyway.

my war/work zone.

finished setup!

dkny;

2008-09-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

give them that stare.

trust.

2008-07-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

I think everything’s really screwed. The past few days have been terrible. I’ve been arguing with mum and dad over every small thing. and now we’re not talking. it’s been 2 days already ok. this is really bad. i asked God why but nobody seems to be listening. i dont know maybe it’s Spiritual Warfare or something, which is actually very scary. Idk. Please God, help me.

And math and chinese. i just cannot do those subjects. why. i cannot write gong han to save my life, because everything i write sounds so simplistic and english-y. i flunked my practice in class. i just dont get people like ____ and ____, where chinese is like second nature or something to them. they’ll probably go for chinese ra man. i bet im not even good enough for any ra. but then again i may not even take up the offer if im offered it in the first place. what with pb and syf and concert and trip humans im gonna be really busy.

but on to more urgent issues. i lost my chinese pt book. the one with EVERYTHING we need to know. imma gonna die. i dont know a single thing about ANY of the topics and chinese pt is next week already. ok im Freaking Out now. this is bad! ok i should borrow someone’s. or go online and search. i really dont want to fail! i always leave stuff so last minute ok. why. its such a bad habit i really need to break. especially when studying for subjects i suck at. so i’ve got to do something about chinese soon. and math. im scared of failing math for my overall year. its already t3 week6 EOYs will be here in no time. I don’t want to fail math, i really dont. but i just cant seem to do it. maybe im not putting my heart into it, but sometimes i just dont see the concepts and stuff. especially for things like indices. im scared for next year. sec 3 math is double weightage. means if i get a stupid 2.8 or 3.2 my gpa will die. but i shall learn to not look at grades so much. and console myself with dresses and songs and paintbrushes and cookies. i dont think im getting very coherent. i think im just freaking out about math and chinese. i havent felt at rest about my studies for a long, long time. which is a bad sign.

but most of all Lord, help me to be rested in You, because worrying wont help my situation. I really need Your help to be diligent in revising my work and getting my act together. I need to put in effort too, if not just depending on You won’t save me. i realise, sadly, that im very unv\motivated and somewhat lazy when it comes to subjs i dont like. please help that change, Lord. i need to stop crapping and start working.

I’m trusting You God. but i know You’ll love me no matter what, so thank You. i love You too.

like sunshine

2008-07-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

Choir concert is, over. That’s it. All our hard prac. Laughter. Tears. Ms Loo’s weird actions. Stressing. Rehearsing 4, 5 times a week. Dancing (or watching Sam dance). Obsessing over Las Amarilas. Watching Grease on Youtube to learn stupid movements. Emceeing (which was a little screwed). My gown was officially Too Short. Natalie came :) haha and even she noticed my gown was too short. she brought me chocolates :D

Singing. Choir means, so much to me. But it’s gonna feel so weird once the sec 4s aren’t around anymore. I wasn’t really close to them like other people, but we felt comfortable around them. they were retarded, so were we (or rather, are). Somehow to alternate batch thing screams at us. Kayleigh and her “Choirrrrr” and waving hands about. (coughtallcough) Fiona and her spasms of rage/laughter/exasperation. Sam and her to-die-for actions/faces/expressions/duh look. Guiqi and her craziness. Chanel and her cute blur look (I rmb in sec 1 Stef and I put a note on her lap while she was sleeping that said, “Are you sleeping?” We were so silly then). Mich and her Hush Puppy eyes and super pro voice. Pat Boey Peiying Sixuan Michele Jiayi Zhulin Shikaye Carol Eliza Yigong Zan Elysia Shirley. I heart choir. I cannot believe time has passed, like whoosh and everything’s gone by. I'm gonna be sec three next year. meaning i hafta be pro alr. cos all the little jrs are coming in. and now when chloe or ms loo asks sec 3s and 4s to sing, that'll be me. and we're expected to be exemplary and all.

anyway i'll miss this year's choir comm. so infinitely retarded but so, so fun. from syf in sec 1, esplanade concert, choir chalet and all. aiya but no matter what Grease will always have a special place in RGchoir (guess who helped choreo We Go Together :D). and ABBA! sectional item was the bomb. i officially love Mamma Mia, esp with all our weird/retard actions. And my batch has grown closer I suppose. I mean there are still problems, but we're learning. Well everything's on everyone else's blogs so I won't say anymore. I can't. Sec 4 farewell is gonna come and my batch has to do something for them!

I HEART RGCHOIR. don't you.

Summer lovin' had me a blast
Summer lovin' happened so fast
I met a girl crazy for me
Met a boy cute as can be
Summer days driftin' away, to uh-oh those summer nights
Tell me more, tell me more
Did you get very far?
Tell me more, tell me more
Like does he have a car?

i'm late! i'm late! mad hatter.

2008-06-09T22:30:00.003+08:00

leaving for m'sia tomorrow. i thought mum would have chased us all to bed by now but she hasn’t. but then again, we have to wake up at 5am tomorrow so maybe i should sleep now anyway.

application form criteria.

2008-06-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

good-looking, tall, has muscles, nice eyelashes, nice eyes, nice smile, nice voice, nice hands, non-gay cca, flat stomach, nice hair, caring, thoughtful, sensitive, smart, makes me laugh, DOES NOT TWIT and the list goes on.

my my, aren't i a demanding little girlie.

tell me that you need me;

2008-06-03T20:51:00.002+08:00

we’re planning a wg outing on the 21^st. hopefully we can go ahead with it. and hopefully i’ll be free. its gonna be so fun!

nat came back from her track trip to thailand and i remembered. how thoughtful of me, yes? anyway. auntie hk and em bought me a giraffe stuffed toy for my belated birthday presesnt thank you VERY much it is very cute :)

whoa, God be the solution\

storybook romance;

2008-05-30T22:58:00.002+08:00

holidays have been ok, but choir pracs have been really long and tiring. jo’s ballet performance is tomorrow :) im kinda tired now. we went out to so many places today. mummy bought me zara jeans :D oh i found out we’re going to kuantan after camp with auntie v and her friend auntie sharon and families. hope its fun.

did you know, that storybook romance is so unrealistic; real life is devoid of really hot guys like rob wilkinson or austin meyers (who are both sadly, fictional).

hillsong united <3

2008-05-25T14:45:00.005+08:00

hillsong united is the best band, EVER. last night’s concert was like, WHAM. everyone was jumping and lifting their hands and screaming, it was just so high. i was screaming like crazy when they sang solution.

and jeevan, gay much! he was in a pink shirt but insisted it wasn't gay. and i saw wei an, that very-short-guy from french ages ago. he grew! but still very short lah. went with amanda but found nat there. so we all sat/stood/jumped together. there were so may rg people there like maria ting sarah rain yingx rebekah evangelyn grace jodi alicia kailin manda me. nat wanted to run after evan and say hi cos she was her junior in st margs but the netballers were sitting like waaay in front.

HILLSONG UNITED I LOVE YOU!

church camp is coming in 15 days. its raining now, how depressing. i wanna eat something. i know snacking is bad but I DON’T CARE.

i’ve got a saviour and he’s living in me, whoa! // i wanna know you // i wanna know you today! // cos you’re the best thing that has happened to me // and the world will never take // the world will never take you away!

crying/laughing/being confused.

2008-05-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

yesterday at web and today matt and ps kai both spoke about giving. and i am reminded of what a selfish little girl i am. really. so what if i give from my pocket money and feel like i dont have enough. He have his life for us, nothing will ever, ever, ever be comparable. everything else just pales in comparison.

i just quarelled with jo. and i understand why they were so annoyed. millions of people are out there starving and dying and we were quarelling over? a sweet. it sounds pathetically stupid to argue about that. but that's exactly what we did. gosh. matt showed us these pictures from myanmar and sichuan, what with the earthquake and fighting and everything. i nearly cried. there was one of this father sitting next to his daughter’s bed with his head down, waiting for her to wake up. but she may never wake up again.

i have everything i could possibly need. so help me stop being so materialistic. yeah sure maybe other people have nicer/better things than me, but at least i have what i need. and i’m alive.

would you believe me, would you listen if i told you that // there is a love that makes a way and never holds you back // so won’t you BREAK FREE.

firstfourthsecond, i dont think i can count.

2008-05-12T22:15:00.004+08:00

i need to stop practising selective hearing. i need to listen to you ALL the time. even if you tell me things i dont wanna hear. cos its for my own good anyway. i wanna put you first in my life; help me get rid of the things that keep me from you. or at least, get my priorities right.

and you are just so hypocritical. you claim i'm your what? best friend? and then you bitch about me behind my back to other people. what a GOOD friend you are. and just stop bugging me about everything. and you think all the guys like you is it? well think again. and it's not like i'm so totally thrilled by all your accounts of which guy you smsed or which guy you talked to. get a life girl.

oh man i'm getting very angry a lot these days. maybe it's post-exam trauma. we're getting papers back on tues till thurs. tmr is a holiday so i'm gonna chiong fashion cluster drawings. sheesh. i feel so... irresponsible. why. geog pt is gonna be a headache i think. powerpoint slides are so ridiculous. i wish we could just do some boring report. so much easier. less hassle than to do all that whatever animation stuff. and i think i'm doing a very common place. so.

oh yeah happy mother's day mummy :) mm hope you liked your present and the yummy lunch :)

ok gonna sleep soon. tired.

tell the world that JESUS lives;\

math and random nsks

2008-05-08T21:45:00.003+08:00

math was *&^@%!#^&@$. quite bad. i didn't really finish properly. and i probably won't even get method marks cos' my methods were most likely wrong to begin with. so. anyway MYAS ARE OVER. mm went out with nadia janne amanda today. funny people lah. oh we went to kap in the end but sadly no dota guys. but there was this huge group of nsks from (censored) sec sch and they were mugging math. one of the girls was trying to teach one guy then she was like "15 x 3 is 45, NOT 5!!!" like omg how can 15 x 3 = 5 ?!?! but then again, they are ahem. and then while i was waiting for the rest to buy their food one said, "haha i'm smarter than you, i got higher marks!" then her friend was like, "eh i also quite smart what." and i nearly gagged. nsks are so amusing.

thank you, for making everything alright.

the rat reappears, and geoffery conducts!

2008-05-07T20:21:00.002+08:00

haha omg RJchorale is good. mm and RIvoices are just so amusing (gay!) oh there was this despo girl in the first row who just kept taking pictures of the same guy over and over again. from RJchorale NOT RIvoices. OMG. probably some random nsk. and someone was SO 'grammerous' and wore like a black skirt ooh i didn't know you had fashion sense. BUT OMG THE WINNER-EST FASHION SENSE PERSON has got to be you-know-who. mm churen asked me if it was autumn wear. we thought she was wearing a trenchcoat. haha. then there was this guy manda and me named tony. she nearly lost control of her bladder laughing. during that cat song it was the worst/best. the tony guy looked so (insert adjective)!

THE RAT APPEARS.

physics was ok, easier than expected, but dunno if i can score well. philo was um... i kinda wrote till the last minute and half of it is probably crap SO oh well it's all over. the stupid thing is, we only get our results after eyas after the second half of the class does philo. what kinda lameness it that.

THE RAT REAPPEARS.

math is tomorrow, i don't know whether to be happy or sad or angry or nervous. math has NEVER been good so uh i suppose i'll just go in tomorrow and face it once and for all. then myas are over over over over over!!!!

SECOND REAPPEARANCE OF RAT.

"thank :-)" -quote pia

he keeps barging into our class during the exam to give stuff it's really annoying. then he wrote that on the board. and drew a nose for his smiley face. like, huh? pia's just weird. he says nothing's confirmed about his pending departure. but MSiu has left already. she said she'd rather teach hands on than teach in class. she's pranced off to teach engineering! goodness.

AND THE RAT APPEARS YET AGAIN.

oh the bush might take over science lessons in sem 2 cos he has like the lightest workload of all the science teachers. they should just fire him if he can't teach well. sheesh.

THE RAT REAPPE-- go away, rat, nobody wants you here

ok then will continue looking thru math stuff, though i can't really absorb anything right now.

'night.

- and you gave me that smile which makes my heart melt.

its my birthday!

2008-05-05T21:31:00.002+08:00

yeah. its my birthday. but geog today was a LEETLE screwed. so. but hopefully i can still do well luh. cos my classmates all wrote about stuff i didnt even notice. whoops. thank you to everyone who gave me presents, love you all muchly. mummy and daddy decided to give me birthday allowance this year instead of racking their brains about my present. ok gotta continue studying. its SO sad to have a birthday SMACK in the middle of myas D:

FEEsicks/FEEwells.

2008-05-03T23:14:00.005+08:00

finished FEEsicks. (physics for the uninformed/non msiu people). and geog. wow today was productive. AAH screw math.

everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades // neverending, your glory goes beyond all fame.

i realise i still have geog pt after myas. its like WHEE myas are over! and you skip down the road happily then suddenly you trip over geog pt and FALL FLAT ON YOUR FACE. peesh. i really hate school now. myas, to be specific.

God, everything’s really messed up now. myas are really bad. but chinese and math suck SO bad. but thanks for loving me anyway <3

birthday in 2 days :)

LABOURlabourDAYday

2008-05-01T20:16:00.004+08:00

labour day. no, not mine. im only 14 ok. gosh today is such a hot day. no, its not you. lit is tomorrow and i haven't studied, dang. if they ask me to make a reference to another part of the book i DIE.

went to auntie mei see’s house for lunch but it was super weird, cos we haven’t seen them in such a long time and g and r are SO antisocial and ang-mohfied. yeah ok, g went to int’l school but r?! she’s just weird lah i think. even mum and jo find her weird. dad told me to play nice with other kids. but they speak so fast. no, they mumble really fast its like this bee droning sound.

ok going to shower now and TRY to study lit.

BIRTHDAY IN FOUR DAYS :)