holidays have been ok, but choir pracs have been really long and tiring. jo’s ballet performance is tomorrow :) im kinda tired now. we went out to so many places today. mummy bought me zara jeans :D oh i found out we’re going to kuantan after camp with auntie v and her friend auntie sharon and families. hope its fun.

hillsong united is the best band, EVER. last night’s concert was like, WHAM. everyone was jumping and lifting their hands and screaming, it was just so high. i was screaming like crazy when they sang solution.

and jeevan, gay much! he was in a pink shirt but insisted it wasn't gay. and i saw wei an, that very-short-guy from french ages ago. he grew! but still very short lah. went with amanda but found nat there. so we all sat/stood/jumped together. there were so may rg people there like maria ting sarah rain yingx rebekah evangelyn grace jodi alicia kailin manda me. nat wanted to run after evan and say hi cos she was her junior in st margs but the netballers were sitting like waaay in front.

HILLSONG UNITED I LOVE YOU!

church camp is coming in 15 days. its raining now, how depressing. i wanna eat something. i know snacking is bad but I DON’T CARE.

i’ve got a saviour and he’s living in me, whoa! // i wanna know you // i wanna know you today! // cos you’re the best thing that has happened to me // and the world will never take // the world will never take you away!

yesterday at web and today matt and ps kai both spoke about giving. and i am reminded of what a selfish little girl i am. really. so what if i give from my pocket money and feel like i dont have enough. He have his life for us, nothing will ever, ever, ever be comparable. everything else just pales in comparison.

i just quarelled with jo. and i understand why they were so annoyed. millions of people are out there starving and dying and we were quarelling over? a sweet. it sounds pathetically stupid to argue about that. but that's exactly what we did. gosh. matt showed us these pictures from myanmar and sichuan, what with the earthquake and fighting and everything. i nearly cried. there was one of this father sitting next to his daughter’s bed with his head down, waiting for her to wake up. but she may never wake up again.

i have everything i could possibly need. so help me stop being so materialistic. yeah sure maybe other people have nicer/better things than me, but at least i have what i need. and i’m alive.

i need to stop practising selective hearing. i need to listen to you ALL the time. even if you tell me things i dont wanna hear. cos its for my own good anyway. i wanna put you first in my life; help me get rid of the things that keep me from you. or at least, get my priorities right.

and you are just so hypocritical. you claim i'm your what? best friend? and then you bitch about me behind my back to other people. what a GOOD friend you are. and just stop bugging me about everything. and you think all the guys like you is it? well think again. and it's not like i'm so totally thrilled by all your accounts of which guy you smsed or which guy you talked to. get a life girl. 

oh man i'm getting very angry a lot these days. maybe it's post-exam trauma. we're getting papers back on tues till thurs. tmr is a holiday so i'm gonna chiong  fashion cluster drawings. sheesh. i feel so... irresponsible. why. geog pt is gonna be a headache i think. powerpoint slides are so ridiculous. i wish we could just do some boring report. so much easier. less hassle than to do all that whatever animation stuff. and i think i'm doing a very common place. so.  

oh yeah happy mother's day mummy :) mm hope you liked your present and the yummy lunch :) 

ok gonna sleep soon. tired.

tell the world that JESUS lives;\

math was *&^@%!#^&@$. quite bad. i didn't really finish properly. and i probably won't even get method marks cos' my methods were most likely wrong to begin with. so. anyway MYAS ARE OVER. mm went out with nadia janne amanda today. funny people lah. oh we went to kap in the end but sadly no dota guys. but there was this huge group of nsks from (censored) sec sch and they were mugging math. one of the girls was trying to teach one guy then she was like "15 x 3 is 45, NOT 5!!!" like omg how can 15 x 3 = 5 ?!?! but then again, they are ahem. and then while i was waiting for the rest to buy their food one said, "haha i'm smarter than you, i got higher marks!" then her friend was like, "eh i also quite smart what." and i nearly gagged. nsks are so amusing. 

haha omg RJchorale is good. mm and RIvoices are just so amusing (gay!) oh there was this despo girl in the first row who just kept taking pictures of the same guy over and over again. from RJchorale NOT RIvoices. OMG. probably some random nsk. and someone was SO 'grammerous' and wore like a black skirt ooh i didn't know you had fashion sense. BUT OMG THE WINNER-EST FASHION SENSE PERSON has got to be you-know-who. mm churen asked me if it was autumn wear. we thought she was wearing a trenchcoat. haha. then there was this guy manda and me named tony. she nearly lost control of her bladder laughing. during that cat song it was the worst/best. the tony guy looked so (insert adjective)!

THE RAT APPEARS. 

physics was ok, easier than expected, but dunno if i can score well. philo was um... i kinda wrote till the last minute and half of it is probably crap SO oh well it's all over. the stupid thing is, we only get our results after eyas after the second half of the class does philo. what kinda lameness it that.

THE RAT REAPPEARS. 

math is tomorrow, i don't know whether to be happy or sad or angry or nervous. math has NEVER been good so uh i suppose i'll just go in tomorrow and face it once and for all. then myas are over over over over over!!!! 

SECOND REAPPEARANCE OF RAT. 

"thank :-)"  -quote pia 

he keeps barging into our class during the exam to give stuff it's really annoying. then he wrote that on the board. and drew a nose for his smiley face. like, huh? pia's just weird. he says nothing's confirmed about his pending departure. but MSiu has left already. she said she'd rather teach hands on than teach in class. she's pranced off to teach engineering! goodness.  

AND THE RAT APPEARS YET AGAIN. 

oh the bush might take over science lessons in sem 2 cos he has like the lightest workload of all the science teachers. they should just fire him if he can't teach well. sheesh.  

THE RAT REAPPE-- go away, rat, nobody wants you here 

ok then will continue looking thru math stuff, though i can't really absorb anything right now. 

'night. 

finished FEEsicks. (physics for the uninformed/non msiu people). and geog. wow today was productive. AAH screw math.

everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades // neverending, your glory goes beyond all fame.

i realise i still have geog pt after myas. its like WHEE myas are over! and you skip down the road happily then suddenly you trip over geog pt and FALL FLAT ON YOUR FACE. peesh. i really hate school now. myas, to be specific.

God, everything’s really messed up now. myas are really bad. but chinese and math suck SO bad. but thanks for loving me anyway <3

birthday in 2 days :)

labour day. no, not mine. im only 14 ok. gosh today is such a hot day. no, its not you. lit is tomorrow and i haven't studied, dang. if they ask me to make a reference to another part of the book i DIE.

went to auntie mei see’s house for lunch but it was super weird, cos we haven’t seen them in such a long time and g and r are SO antisocial and ang-mohfied. yeah ok, g went to int’l school but r?! she’s just weird lah i think. even mum and jo find her weird. dad told me to play nice with other kids. but they speak so fast. no, they mumble really fast its like this bee droning sound.

ok going to shower now and TRY to study lit.

BIRTHDAY IN FOUR DAYS :)