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Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Angel of Music 11:37 PM

MUMMY IS DOWNSTAIRS WATCHING PHANTOM OF THE OPERA WHILE I AM STUCK UP HERE DOING HOMEWORK THIS IS NOT FAIRRRRR

but im like singing along while working :D but i love love love love love Phantommmm omg. but the movie's not as good as the musical i think and the original cast like sarah brightman and michael crawford are loads better i love brightman's voice. esp in the song Phantom of the opera the part where she does her high shrieky thing and ohman i remember in sec 1 on my birthday mummy bought the super ex tickets for us to go watch Phantom at the esplanade. and how i cried and cried when the Phantom was like left all alone while christine and raoul rowed off and OMG CALM DOWN.

ok i must continue working now. but the music is SO, distracting.


saturday come fasterrrr 7:08 PM

Pink Fluffy Strapless Dress: $100+
Cute shoes: $70
Accessories and stuff: $50+++

Seeing Cheng Lynn in a dress: Priceless.

There are some things money can't buy,
For everything else, there's Raffles.

Koped off the FB group I WANT TO SEE CHENG LYNN IN A DRESS. omg funnyyyy i tell you. lynn go wear a dress for prom we shall dress you up and LOAD you with makeup hahaha. and we will take pictures and act like paparazzi we'll snap every shot possible regardless of glam factor. and then we will spam fb upload them all jam the whole system because there are too many photos of lynn omg. potato sack madness. 

anyway. school's been ok but there's nothing to look forward to everyday it's just lessons lessons lessons. saturday come quickly please D: D: D: 

on a lighter note, i made it :) thank You God because i know i couldn't have done it without You. to those who might, jia you k there's another round of audits you can do it! and for those who didn't, it's ok, RGchoir still loves you and we'll be behind you all the way. besides, there's more to life than just this. to those who did, YAY :D

i am suddenly so inspired for fashion cluster and my barbie doll dress and everything oh man. i wish school work was all like this. and i love doing research for FC cos it gives me an excuse to look at prettyyyy ads and pictures from all those posh brands. 

k gtg do work. i am just not inspired to do homework psssht.


Monday, March 23, 2009
and it's all gone, just like that. 6:24 PM

and the holidays are like, WHOOSH. and it's all over. 

BOARD CAMP WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS. i miss it so, so much D: can't wait till next year's. oh man i LOVE PB AWESOMELY MUCH and camp and the dancing and the food and the random screaming and night maze and the stupid shutter movie and the after meal highness where we sang all those songs like CHECK YES JULIET (lovelovelove) and all our instructors who ran across the field after the bus as we were leaving that made us cry ohmygoodness. I WANT BOARD CAMP ALL OVER AGAIN. 

anyway after that i went to bintan with the family and I TANNED. like, HAHAHA I FINALLY AM NOT SO WHITE ANYMORE. but it'll probably fade. but i hope not i don't wanna look like some random vamp-ish person with white skin and all again. 

i survived monday. with much pain and effort. but today was not good. such a lethargic day. and so much work to do. gotta rush fashion cluster geog chinese bio by tomorrow D: oh but cheer prac was fun, thankfully.

this time i need a soldier; a really bad ass soldier


Wednesday, March 11, 2009
but life goes on. 5:53 PM

Used to be so close. So, close. Inseparable. Calls everyday. Laughing; sharing secrets. Knew everything about each other. You'd come over to my house every other week, don't you remember. I do.  

But somehow, somewhere along the line, people change. We changed. I changed. I made new friends. You made new friends too. I left you behind; so you say. Everyone around me seemed to know I was changing. But I didn't know then. And I kept telling myself that we'd always be inseparable; that somehow or other we'd be there for each other. And year after year we think we're growing as friends when we've only drifted further apart.  

I don't know how I feel about it anymore. I know what I should do, but somehow it seems so hard. We hardly ever have anything to talk about anymore. And we can make the effort, but anyone can see it's forced. I know we used to call each other Best Friends. But were we, really? Or was that just something temporary? Because now, honestly, I don't feel that way anymore.  

I always feel so fake when I'm with you. And maybe that's why I give my time to all my other commitments; so when you ask if I have time, I don't.  

Excuses, excuses.  

The thing is, I don't really want to move on. I'm selfish too. People tell me I should keep my friendship with you because it's Precious and Important. And I know how selfless you can be. But I don't think I click with you anymore. You hang out with people I don't click with either. And by the way, you're hanging out with someone you used to dislike. Hate actually. You told me not to get too close to her, and that she wouldn't make a good friend. And now, you go out with her; spend time with her. Her, of all people.

I know, the irony hurts. Definitely. I want to tell you that I want to move on, and just stay with all those memories when we were younger. But I can't bring myself to. Although I think now it's already something not openly acknowledged; but we both know it. The sad thing is, I'm not sure if I'll miss you that much. Shows how much we've drifted doesn't it.

Maybe it is time to move on. You have your life, I have mine. Our lives aren't even running parallel anymore. They're diverging.

But life goes on. 

So yeah, have fun with your life.






Tuesday, March 3, 2009
math pt please go away. 11:17 PM

I am totally supposed to be doing math pt now but omg i have no life. in sec 3 we have no life.

let me reiterate.

IN SEC 3 WE HAVE NO LIFE.

everyday its work pt work essays work fa work research work cca work rehearsals. i have no time for anything else. and this year i've been sleeping at like 1, 2 in the morning everyday. not. good. at. all. i have permanent eyebags it is SAD. and i think they're biased against the trip humans people or something all our exams were crammed into those few days. English geog lit on one day, bio ss hist on another. but WHO CARES IT'S ALL OVER because i have no physics data analysis on thurs nyeh nyeh but then MATH PT IS DUE THEN. ohmy.

- momentary panicking -

everything should be ok but i really need to do well for pt cos stats ppa was plain screwed. i totally flunked it man. need to work harder.

anyway, SO, MANY, THINGS, HAVE, HAPPENED. like sli! it was fun. i miss it. our performance may not have been super awesome but it bonded us and i had fun rehearsing and performing it. like sarah and her -slicks back hair- "I'm Rain. Use Clear Shampoo" and Lynn's "Good morning thank you and that is all" omg we were all laughing like crazy. and then of course our exams, where i crammed everything the night before i cannot believe myself. but then again i probably didn't do too well either. i feel so awfully irresponsible and stuff but the thing is we only have a freaking 24 hours in a day and its not enough D:

and founder's day! this year somehow or other we're having it on two days. friday and saturday. and it's in the evening this year. but Dionne deployed me as Ms Norris' personal usher with Sarah Siaw isn't that cool. so honoured.

and mygosh i HEART avemaria like A LOT. we had prac at vch that day and it was kinda screwed and all our pitching was disgusting and we didn't blend and all but the feeling was so magical and ms loo made us all lie down on the stage and close our eyes and listen to the piano. and vch brought back all those wonderful memories of syf in sec 1. ITSUKI. ohmy. itsuki has to be my favourite song of ALL. i remember crying on stage as we sang it, and how shiao yen looked like her heart was breaking while conducting. and how after that ko matsushita stood up and said "bravo" from the gallery up there with all the judges and gold with honours and all. itsuki brings back so many nice memories. my batch has, to bring it back next year if not i'll just cry. I HEART THAT SONG MUCHLY. even more than ave, actually. but ohwell ave is real pretty too.

AND I SHOULD TOTALLY BE DOING MATH PT NOW. I FOUND A LOT OF USEFUL DATA THOUGH I AM HAPPY.

i should stop shouting and this is an awfully long rambly unnecessary jumble of words you're better off not reading. i think i needed the stress relief. somehow hitting the keyboard helps to relieve stress.

SO I SHALL SHOUT SOMEMORE WHILE HITTING THE KEYBOARD REALLY HARD. I BELIEVE IT IS THERAPEUTIC FOR YOUR FINGERS. SO, GO HIT. (not on someone, but the keyboard.)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIMONE (and tim koh though yours was yesterday.) OLD PEOPLE.

i love this record, baby, but i can't see straight anymore; just dance.