yesterday at web and today matt and ps kai both spoke about giving. and i am reminded of what a selfish little girl i am. really. so what if i give from my pocket money and feel like i dont have enough. He have his life for us, nothing will ever, ever, ever be comparable. everything else just pales in comparison.

i just quarelled with jo. and i understand why they were so annoyed. millions of people are out there starving and dying and we were quarelling over? a sweet. it sounds pathetically stupid to argue about that. but that's exactly what we did. gosh. matt showed us these pictures from myanmar and sichuan, what with the earthquake and fighting and everything. i nearly cried. there was one of this father sitting next to his daughter’s bed with his head down, waiting for her to wake up. but she may never wake up again.

i have everything i could possibly need. so help me stop being so materialistic. yeah sure maybe other people have nicer/better things than me, but at least i have what i need. and i’m alive.