
i less than three peebee.
and so, after a million years of planning slogging laughing sleeping late feeling excited chionging freaking out eating macs 2 days in a row factory packing calling the tshirt woman 234574398578 times singing going for gm anticipating going through programme another 234574398578 times proudly proclaiming im from ot,
ICYL IS OVER.
i think i needed the big font. somehow im getting this weird feeling that icyl isn't over yet, that it's about to begin. i suppose as ot we didn't really get to participate so actively during icyl itself, or interact as much with the delegates, but it was a super fun experience. for the few times i sat in for the talks, i feel i actually did learn something. Her Excellency Zanele Makina was really, really inspiring. and dr shirley lim is, SO, nice. she's our icyl patron and she sponsored everyone's peaks profiling thing. like, wow. and according to mrs hoo, she wants icyl'10 to be "BIGGER and BETTER." so. i wanna come back as a facil in icyl'10! or else, as a participant. honestly, it's something i srsly want to do.
these few days its weird not going to school so early anymore. i slept in on saturday after icyl because i was really tired after everything, and cos i had to get stitches at the hospital. i tripped up the stupid amphi steps in my court shoes trying to run after someone with nadia, then i got this gash on my shin. it was totally painless for the first minute or so, and i didn't realise it until nadia practically screamed "ARIEL WHAT HAPPENED" and then i Freaked Out. now it doesn't hurt as much but i am still super Grossed Out by it all. claire said it wasn't that bad when she saw it but i hate this kinda thing. which is why i probably Fail as a doctor. anyway. pit camp tmr! yeah i am excited. it's overnight :D meaning NIGHT WALK! oh man we get to be ghosts this year and im gonna take lotsa pictures of the little juniors freaking out. and im gonna sing parts of itsuki and speak in that freaky doll voice and it'll be sooo fun. but i rmb when i did the walk myself i was terrified. i cried and just got so scared esp when hannah told those stories from previous years. though now that i look back i realise they cant be true if not night walk wouldnt be allowed to continue.
anyway i should go sleep now we hafta report at 8 tmr :/ i want my sleep yeah so i shall go sleep now.
you make me laugh, but why don't i make you feel the same way?

something's gotta give. maybe it's you.
oh man so many things, such little time. and so much confusion and emotion. i feel strangely detached from everything. my brain and hands don't seem to be co-ordinating. my brain is all messed up and everything's going round and round in this whirlwind but my hands are doing PBCO ICYL IF Rep Day things. thank God FF is over, less things to think about. but, i have, so much, to do. icyl is in 8 DAYS. wtshizz. i barely have any holiday AT ALL.
schedule for the week:
monday 7.30 am ICYL opening closing ceremony rehearsal // 1.30 pm logs meeting with ms koh // 5 pm leave for IF with lynn till 11pm.tuesday 9 am choir prac // 1.30 pm rep day comm meeting & envisioning session till 3.30/4 pm. wednesday banner and stuff coming in. GO TO SCHOOL TO HELP PACK. thursday tshirts coming in. GO TO SCHOOL TO COLLECT. continue packing from yesterday, do setup.friday last min setup stuff, go through everything again. maybe go to ymca to do last min stuff too. saturday joell's rgps carnival then maybe clueless. if not, web.sunday church, worry about icyl, freak out when i get a call from someone saying something's not done for icyl. monday ICYL IS HERE OMG FINALLY. report to school at 6.30 am wtshizz o.O
but tmr is IF, exciting! batch performance is the love. esp the whole new world remix written by sarah and lee voon. super funny! and vanessa and pris rewrote lemon tree, and now it's so sad and tear-inducing. i might cry singing it. and, confirmations. i really didn't wanna think about it. well a lot of things have happened, but i suppose everything will turn out the way He wants it to. And maybe He's trying to teach me something through this whole experience. but fedele i love you, for being there for me to support and encourage me all the way no matter what the outcome may be. i love you dionne and isabelle, the first 2 people i really talked to about it. i cried after i went out from speaking with the 4 heads and juliet. i just teared and i wasn't sure whether it was joy or uncertainty or relief. i really don't know. oh well there's nothing much i can do now, so i'm leaving everything in Your hands. thank you Lord :)
is missing you a crime?
strut your stuff; show them you've got it.
xoxo. 7:04 PM
shoot. 6:44 PM
omg i cannot believe myself i had another haircutting disaster and now my hair is short short short and soooo layered and like 1/10 of the original length/thickness. sheesh. everyone was really shocked and everything o.O plus, if you knew me from primary school and compare my hairlengths then and now the difference is disconcerting. one day i shall dig up photos from last time and compare and feel my heart break. but apparently my hair now is cute, so.
last day of school today but it wasn't much. got report card back. i did better than expected! i was really sure i would get ____, but in the end i got ____ ! mm i miss web. sick last saturday so i didn't go. and this sat is FF Rec Day and CONFIRMATIONS, so i can't go for web, again. or maybe i can. but! confirmations! are! coming! and i'm really scared. well, more about out batch as a whole. like, we've been through so much and so many things have happened. we can't afford to have our batch broken up even more. on the brighter side, we get to plaaayyyy with our new juniors! we met them some time last week but i can't remember who they all are.
a. n. y. w. a. y. mummy says we'll be going to malaysia for a holiday. she wants a beach & shopping holiday and phuket and bangkok are outta the question cos she doesn't want to get bombed. AAAH and i must say AGAIN, how cute my rabbit is :)